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Monday, July 8, 2019

final thoughts

These are my last words and chances are nobody will read them
as the days pass you'll forget my pen name
as the weeks pass you'll forget about my blog and the words you read
as the months pass you'll forget that I was in your class
As the years pass you'll forget about me

one day I'm just going to be another face in your year book
Another name that "sounds familiar"

one day you'll forget about me

I was up late driving
just me
and the stars
and the road
everyone was asleep
everyone should be asleep
but some of us were still awake because we couldn't fall asleep
or we didn't want to fall asleep
or we are in love
or our hearts are broken
or we are too depressed to sleep
or we are too happy to fall asleep

when we look up at the sky,
some of us only see the dark fabric
others only see the bright twinkling lights



soon you'll graduate and the life that once was the only thing you knew will be a distant memory, You'll remember the best, you'll remember the worst, and maybe a few things in between, but you'll forget the things that don't matter.


This is the end
I'm probably never going to see any of you again
I'm excited to leave,
but I wish I would have appreciated high school more
put me out there, made more friends,
theres a boy ive liked sense august, ive talked to him probably twice
I wish I would have told him that the way his eyes wrinkle when he smiles makes my heart melt




Monday, April 11, 2016

Hello, my name is:

In your eyes by rogue wave

I am 58% introverted, 42% extroverted and 100% lonely

expressive
outgoing
 more comfortable alone

I love the smell of silence

a contrast of quantity and intensity brings a feeling of "I need to escape"

exhausted by people, I yearn for natures solidity

I'm 90% intuitive and 99% a dreamer.

Curious George is my spirit animal.

a decision is only as good and the understanding that's behind it. My understanding comes from the feeling in my stomach, the butterfly's whispers.

 The stars call me "the dreamer". They watch me fantasize and I ask them questions about why things happen the way they do.

Slightly detached from the world, connected simply by a thread, I believe I don't truly belong here.

Why read history books when you can create your own
why keep your feet on the ground when you could be flying above the clouds

My heart is my compass,
 my emotions are my map,

passion ignites my inner flame, through my eyes you can see it truly shine.

1 in 25
I call myself misunderstood

"all that is gold does not glitter; not all those who wander are lost; the old that is strong does not wither; deep roots are not reached by the frost"
- J.R.R. Tolkien

communication runs deep, I connect with heart beats and blood. with brainwaves, subconscious habits, and blank stares.

Symbols share my ideas

my life is full of dot to dots and undiscovered constellations

you've known me as Aeonian
and you've known me as Makaela Alder
now i hope you know me as both

Sunday, March 6, 2016

Song Lyric Poetry

Song: Saturn By Sleeping at Last

I played some music and the lines that stood out I wrote down and tried to make a poem out of it... it has almost no flow and doesn't really make sense...

we were victims of the night
we were bound to get together
you do everything I wish I did
I see in flames we belong together
I get a rush when I'm with you
I know I should tell you how I feel
I just want to be with you
I hope you feel the way I do
I've got a crush on you

my heart is filled with you
I just cant get enough
you're stuck on me and my laughing eyes
I think I felt my heart skip a beat
that crooked smile of yours knocks me off my feet
for all the things my hands have held, the best by far is you
I walk the maze of moments
the moon upon the ocean is swept around in motion
you cant fight the motion, its kinetic
you cant stop the moment its electric
you know I'm a fool for you
you've got me wrapped around your finger
exaggerate and you and I
you can hear it in the scilence
you can feel it on the way home
you can see it with the lights out
for once you let go of your fears and your ghosts
you understand now why they lost their minds and fought their wars
you're in love

we slowed it down
I was late but I arrived
where we want to be now is where we thought we would be safe and sound, back on the ground
I realize this is my last chance
there's nothing I want more except to be alone
we've got nowhere to run, they've all got loaded guns
I'm sorry but I would rather be getting high than watch my family die

time moved too fast
blue light reflects the chain on his neck
I locked myself in a hotel room and waited for the walls to move
I gave you something you can never give back
was it just a game to you?
the silence surrounds me, flashing memories of you
if I could I would wrap you up in a box just to be near you
you've seen your face like a heart attack
I look up to the heavens but the night is clouded over
it could be a reflection
the things I learned from a broken mirror, how a face can change when a heart knows fear
I cant forget it
I love you. don't you mind?


I think the air is finally safe to breathe again, to breathe again
roll olut your maps and papers and find out your hiding places again
I made some friends and I lost some too
if I could fly then I would know what life looks like from up above and down below
don't you dare look back

songs used:
Dreaming by Smallpools
You've Got Me by Colbie Caillat
You Are In Love by Taylor Swift
Crush by Mandy Moore
Silent World by Donna Lewis 
Linger by The Cranberries
Anywhere Is by Enya
The Love Club by Lorde
Shut Up and Dace by Walk The Moon
Kinetic by The Cinema
Cecilia and the Satellite by Andrew
Me by The 1975